Patti: aww, well thank you!
I think I definitely have, too. When I first came on this forum I was 26 (good lord, where does the time go!) and 26-28 was, for me, a time of deepening anxiety. In getting a handle on that, I ended up reflecting a lot on notions of acceptance (i.e. not trying desperately to keep the bad stuff away, which is what anxiety does, but just accept that this is how things are right now and trust that I can deal with life as it comes) and I think that really helped.
And yes, definitely, getting better health care - I'll say it! that's what it is! - has made a tremendous difference. I am grateful to my previous HCPs for taking me on as a long-term patient at what was technically a short-term clinic, because otherwise I wouldn't have had any access to diabetes-specific care at all. But they were just not set up - in terms of resources and knowledge base - to really effectively help me, and they were mostly conservative rather than proactive.
My current clinic is also, sadly, short-term (6-9 months normally). So probably once I am stable on the pump we'll start talking about a handoff to their sister clinic that does the long-term care. I do worry how that will go but so far the quality of care I've seen at this hospital (including my GP's office, which is hospital-affiliated) has been top notch so I'll just assume that's how it will continue until I know otherwise!
But it has made SUCH a difference. I made sure to tell them so at my last appointment! They are more progressive and willing to change things up, and they are genuinely supportive and care about me as a person rather than as a statistic. I do think that's the key to it all, it's just a fundamental change in perspective where they see ME and acknowledge that diabetes is only part of my life, and they recognize how capable I am and how hard I'm working, even if I still technically "miss the mark" according to official guidelines (because capability and effort don't always correlate to results!). At my last appointment my CDE handed me Adam Brown's book (bright spots and landmines) and said she had been given it at a conference and wanted to know what I thought!
Anyway - I do recall your opera story Patti! Spandex undergarment from hell
I'm thankful that at least I won't have to fish anything out of my drawers! From the videos I've seen on YouTube, even if you get a "screamer" (pod failure alarm) you can muffle it pretty effectively with your hands or a sweater or something until you can excuse yourself to take care of it.