Steven, looking at the figures at the bottom of your posts, you HbA1c figures are excellent up to and including Dec 2014. I am sorry to hear that it has got so much worse now.
It sounds as though you are really addicted to carbs, Steven and that is probably why you struggle with your mental health. At the end of the day, it can only be up to you what you eat.
Did you read the link to the post that I wrote to Victoria? http://diabetes-support.org.uk/diabetes_forum/index.php/topic,7357.15.html
If so, you will know that I too had kidney failure. In fact a year or so ago, one of the GP's at the Health Centre was talking to me about dialysis and saying that at some future date I may well have to have it. It really frightened me! Twelve months ago my HbA1c went up to 56 and my own GP said she would not give me Metformin because of my kidneys.
I agreed to be a bit stricter with my diet as I had begun to stray from it at times. I was eating a lot of milk chocolate flake bars and ice cream, though I had already cut out the starchy things from my diet. I replaced bread with protein rolls from Lidl and eat cauliflower rice fried in coconut oil with with Pilau Rice seasoning. Instead of pasta, I have courgette either spiralised or cut into rounds and fried. A good curry with it or some lovely bolognese and I am more than happy. I still have my little treats in the form of a Mini Magnum and some dark chocolate just before bed.
Last Friday at my review, my GP showed me my kidney results for the past 2 years and they had improved every time I was tested and they are now almost back to normal.
I too would like to apologise for hijacking Jibber's post but what it does prove is that we are all different and all have our different ways of treating our diabetes.
Patti, I did understand what you were saying but maybe my reply was not quite what I meant to say. Sorry!